♥ ♥ ♥

It's your fault my face hurts from smiling all day long ;)

jealousy overflood

working time is at 12noon later
wonder why i wake up so early
can't really sleep in and well recently
been thinking about a stupid question yesterday
have no guts to ask
or perhaps no guts to know the answer

no one to blame with
as usual i'm the one who brought in everything
fuck you jealousy!
you did a good job in torturing my mind and soul

tearing inside and outside once i think about it
now you know how much that person means to me

O3O

大庭广众被人拉脱bra带
真的吓倒我想哭
下次不要这样了
要就私底下 哈哈哈
骗你的 想都不要想！

Lot of lovessss

Thanks to Eling,
even though we can't celebrate together in recent years
but you will always be the first one in my thank list
hearts you lot!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Thanks Joyce,
who prepared the party for me
and always listen to my ''ngam cham''
bring me out for MCD, luk luk and fruit juice
nah i promise will help you halau lalat dont worry XD ♥♥♥

Thanks Xueyee,
nothing much can say to you
you know i love you very very much!! ♥♥♥

Thanks Abby and Malcom,
you guys are like my big sister and brother
always take care of me in every ways
how can i not sayang you guys? ♥♥♥

Thanks Shuyee,
for the delicious chocolate cake!
it tasted soooooo good!

Thanks Laura,
for the headband and keychain
you know what?
you really are my best partner in crime ever! ♥♥

No thanks to Kuku,
for always bully me, being heartless to me, 'concern' as in 38 bout my humble life and so on
nahh! just kidding!
you are a very good friend that i can really lean on when im down, let me untie your shoelaces anytime anywhere and and and i have no idea dy
seems like you treat me not good enough hahahhaa
but dolly still loves you =) ♥

thanks to Lopez for the vodka,
Geoffrey and Jeremiah attended the dinner

Thanks for those who sent wishes thru fb, msn, texts or phone calls
you all rock and may GBU ♥

secret

if i write down everything here
i bet eling will kill me for uncovering myself
but but...
what am i going to do?
the feeling is over flood

if that person ask me the magic question
i will definitely turn on!

龚芝怡 - 明知我爱你

告訴你 瞞著你 只不過是個決定
放棄你 忘記你 只怕我無法前進
不知道為什麼會如此莫名緊張你
我越了解你，越靠近你，越猶豫

明知道我愛你 卻不敢告訴你
我害怕失去你 寧願沉默不語
該如何整理 幸福在手裡
我恨自己 無能為力

明知道我愛你 卻不敢靠近你
我假裝不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能沒有你
只想永遠永遠愛你
你知不知道我也沒關系 (真的沒關系)

告訴你 瞞著你 只不過是個決定
但為何 到如今 我依然無法前進
不知道為什麼會如此莫名緊張你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越猶豫

you are the drug

i don't even know what i want now

so sick of confusing myself every seconds of the day

to be frank, i like you very very much and i'm not afraid to tell

you really mean something to me

but why do you have to doubt it when i tell you that i like you?

it hurts A LOT!

well, it takes all of me to stop looking for you automatically

i don't want to fall deeper when i know i won't get anything in return

i'm currently metal torturing myself

listening to emotional song to make me feel better

Borneo Project 2010

参加了BP

感触良多

他们，日本来的朋友们

大爱无私的精神很叫人敬佩

不多些 最近真的很懒

First BP meeting

Numbak home visiting

Natchan ♥

Mayu ♥

K, Junya, Saki, Mayu ♥

Mars, Ms. Akiko, Rachel, Sha, Misaki, Erika ♥

Me, Monami, Yamato, Makiko ♥

Toshi, Yukiko, Natchan, Chuya ♥

BJ, Junya, Misaki, Me, Natchan ♥

Monami ♥

我真的可以吗
真的可以说放手就放手吗

就这么第一次
我连笑着也是痛的
那么用力地笑 那么用力地掩饰

pain

你可能不知道 那是我全部的勇气了

以后 都不会再有了

我明知道答案的不是吗

为什么还要有所期待

那种痛 我现在才体会到

我不会假装

我并不勇敢

那样做 并没有换来解脱

我在哪里？

搞不清楚了

瞎

我开始困扰了

你说的某些话

好像都在暗示些什么

巧克力的包装

意外地 你还留着

哪又代表什么

我不愿多想

怕换来只是自己一厢情愿

埋葬在深渊里

我为自己设下的防护线

又逐渐地被攻破

I can't force anyone to tell me what happen

she is like that

she is like that too

I don't want to see any of my friends suffer for their own

It gives my heartache seriously

but what can I do?

NOTHING

be there for them

I always will

CRAZY

21号 那个晚上是我永远不会忘记的一天

完完全全地失去控制和放肆

问我后不后悔

其实还好

老实讲 我还蛮期待下一次

我吓坏你了吗？

✿ blue

I have no idea what is wrong with me
I just need somebody to hug me tight
Eling is far far away from me
even if she is here, does she want to let me hug?
Joyce is not available at the moment

monday blue oh monday blue

✿ confuse

I've been up and down this week
really shitty I'm serious
I usually go to bed at 9
but now, you still can see me online at 3 in the midnight

people know that I don't really drink
drink as in alcohol
I guess, it is needed now
but who can take care of me until I'm sober after drunk
best friend is not around

what am I thinking actually?
it's not going to happen anyway
please Doris Kung I beg you
only this week is enough
don't do this to yourself

everyone has their own things to go through with
I don't want to bother people with my problem